Work Update.

I feel a lot better about all of it.  I'm actually really, really happy!

I've been on the floor the past couple of days and it's been great! Still don't know what I'm doing half of the time, but luckily everyone has been really helpful and nice.  I like knowing there's so much to do in this field even though I'm not independent yet.  But I'm in no rush for that! ha ha ha! Just like taking the baby steps for now.

I am so happy and relieved to have this job.  I can't stop feeling so good inside!! I've never had that happen to me before.

BUT... (now this is my negative side talking) I'm just worried because you know the saying, "What goes up, must come down."

Hmmm.... just hoping I can handle it all when that happens because the way I've been feeling lately, that "down" is going to be really hard.

So... new goal for the new year:

Face every challenge head on and with a better attitude than before. 

Ok go!

Ahhhh!!

I wish school was out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

13 more weeks.

Let the countdown begin.

Happy Holidays!!!

I love this time of year. It's just wonderful to be with family and relaxing without any care in the world! I have so much joy and hope for the following year.

Let us always remember to keep the spirit of Christ throughout the whole year :)

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

I have some things to work on...

So I decided to write a quick, sort of long, update before I hit the books...

I'm really enjoying everything so far in spite of the stress and uncertainity of it all. I finally got my head in the game. I'm loving the new people I'm meeting in the program too.

And I'm also loving what I'm doing so far! But it's so foreign. The basic things like basic hygiene, bed making, and even washing my hands are so complex to me right now. These will be the essentials I build upon for the rest of my life and it's kind of overwhelming. Especially because it's not about me anymore and learning to think about it in that way is a lot harder for me than I thought, especially when trying to make grades comes into mind.

Just comparing it to when I just took my science classes, I can really see a difference. Those classes don't really prepare you for the real stuff at all. All you know is the science stuff, but you don't know anything about actually having to apply it and what it all really means in real life. You were taught just to memorize and spit it out on a multiple choice test. Now you get to build upon everything and you actually have to think about why you're doing what you're doing and actually perform it. It's kind of fun and scary at the same time.

Today I got tested for vital sign competency. I practiced and I practiced and I even dreamed about what I was going to do and say. But of course I get in the room, with a patient (who is just another student nurse) and the teacher and my mind goes all over the place. I'm shaking and wondering what it is I'm forgetting, then I'm wondering if the "patient" is thinking I'm incompetant and then wondering if I am doing it completely wrong or if everyone thinks I'm an idiot. I just let a lot of things factor in that shouldn't have be let in. Luckily, I didn't do anything stupid or out of the ordinary, but it takes time getting used to it. I just need more practice. I'm sure most people learning any type of new job feel this way at some point.

Tomorrow is clinical day which means I get to work with a CNA and help out. Yay! Nothing too dramatic, but I've been told several times that I am lol.