At Least Read the Bold

So yea, today wasn't that great. I studied my butt off for my micro test and I felt like I knew it like the back of my hand or maybe that was the problem... long story short, it feels like my teacher doesn't like to really test my knowledge, but rather he likes to test my patience.

For all I know, it didn't turn out as bad as I'm imagining it and I somehow did get through the test better than I thought. So I still have to prepare like I'm going into school this summer even if there's a small chance it may be pushed back. I will learn to accept whatever path is being laid out before me even if one of them ends up in tears. I know it'll be for the best.

I need to get a PDA/smartphone/blackberry device of somesort and it needs to have the web/wifi. This is for school because I have to get a nursing program for it (if you're really curious what it is, you can find it on unboundmedicine.com; I'm not sure of the exact program yet). I have T-mobile now.. they're ok. I don't always get reception in certain parts of school. I'm a little worried. Do you need good reception for the web too? Or are these separate things? I'm lost.

Anyone have any good suggestions for devices and/or carriers??

No worries about the prices. I'll figure that out later. I plan on being pretty poor the next year anyways lol.

Thank you! :)

Just a Thought.

Have you ever been sad and you know you brought it on yourself and you can fix it by making more of an effort, but you still wish they would actually make the effort first or at least not give up on you even though you probably shouldn't expect them to try anymore??

Yea.

Goals

They say that if you write down (or in my case type) out your goals, that you're more likely to accomplish them. So I decided to do that right now as I'm studying for my exam for Tuesday. I'm trying to envision what I want and start believing I can do it.

My goal is to pass my microbiology exam with an 87%.

A Walk in the Desert

Who knew Nevada could be so pretty!

Flying Dog.

My mom, sister, and I were out on a walk and we noticed this...

Totally Unexpected.

Dear Meghan

I am please to inform you that you have been conditionally accepted into the Summer 2009 BSN nursing program at UNLV pending successful completion of your prerequisites. You must successfully complete all requirements prior to starting the nursing program.

AAHHHH!!!! I can't believe it. I was NOT expecting to see those words on the page when I opened the letter.

Don't get too excited just yet. It means I still need to pass my microbiology course. I will work my hardest and definitely talk to my teacher about this. Hopefully he'll be kind to me and help me out lol. Nursing school this summer is not definite yet. But I can't help but to be excited anyways!

So much to panick over now. So much to do. So much to worry about. Everything I've been dreaming and talking about nonstop is starting to become realistic and now I'm wondering why I haven't prepared for this moment better!! lol.

If all goes according to plan, I will be an RN by next summer 2010!!! Wow. Kind of scary for all you future patients out there isn't it?? lol.

I'm going to go for a walk now.

The results are in...

I finally got my grade back from my microbiology test! After a whole week of waiting for him to finally put it up, even though he said he'd have it up a week ago, I ended up getting 78%!!!

Of course I'm both happy and sad about this. In my biology classes (not counting chemistry lol) in the past I've always been able to score 80% or better because that's just what my record has been. I was so close this time and sadly, I know of at least 3 questions that I should have gotten right, but stupidly second guessed myself (of course, ugh). That's why I'm bummed about my score because I expect more of myself, especially this late in the game. But I'm also extremely happy because the average for the class was 57% and the highest score was 81% which just means I didn't do too bad against everyone else. But I will always find a way to beat myself up over it. And I will try really hard not to!

I feel a lot better knowing my score now. I've been up at night just thinking about it and I've been losing sleep too. I still feel like I have a shot at scoring that B though. I just need to pull off an A in lab and study harder for the next test. Hopefully!

Phew!