First Day.

It was simple, fun, and easy. We learned how to raise and lower the beds, put on gowns correctly, and that's pretty much it. I'm pretty sure that'll be the last time I ever call something in nursing school easy though.

I've been reading all day and it's scary because I'm not sure what I'm supposed to be focusing on yet and what is expected of me. So I feel unproductive, unorganized even though I am, and lost. Hopefully I can just remember everything and stop feeling anxious at one point.

But here's a picture of me in my uniform! lol. Ignore how grubby I look and just admire the fact that I'm trying here!

On the next episode of Lost...

Sorry, the last blog was just... well what it was so I'll try and explain more.

If you couldn't tell, I did officially make it into nursing school! Yay!!! And to go along with the last blog, I'm starting to feel more like myself, which feels great! (Thanks Rachael for your words.. you were right!)

The last day or two I've been organizing everything in my room, my mind, and my time. And for the first time ever with school I feel all over the place!!!! It's so insane! I've been looking over all my class schedules and some of them are confusing and some of them seem too much. I really don't know what I'm getting myself into even though I'm staring at it in the face.

Only time will tell I guess. I'm going to have one last fun weekend and I probably won't have very many friends for the next year lol. So be patient with me! And I'll try to post more pictures as time goes on :)

Just another side, random complaint: Who sells my idea of the perfect planner but starts it at the month of July?! Lame.

p.s... sewing patches onto sleeves.. not as much fun as you would like to believe.

Orienation.

Wow. Today was confusing, exciting, and just out there. It's hard to tell what I'm getting into at this point and I feel like my body is there, but my mind and emotional state are not. I kind of got into a phase where I just didn't want to live in reality and now I can't find my way back in or I guess I could say I won't let myself find my way back in. Kind of hard to explain without sounding too crazy. It's something I'm going to have to work on this week or it'll be forced upon me next week! And if it can't be forced upon me then I am officially screwed.

(Why am I doing this to myself now!? That's what bugs me the most about it. I've been working for the last two years to get to this point and now I decide to go into this funk??)

Blessings.

Well, somehow I passed microbiology. I even got an A! And it was mostly because he gave extra points. And most likely because he knows his tests are ridiculous. But it's over and it feels sooooo Good! I actually got to take a nap today.

All I have left to do is just finish up a paper and beg my stats teacher to make sure I get a C. I'd hate to think a stupid, meaningless class would get in my way now.

But I've been having a really hard time focusing. I haven't been me for the last couple of weeks and it's driving me nuts. I can't let go of certain things and a part of me is letting that happen; it's my fault and it's been a struggle. I'm just going to have to work really hard to get out of this slump. Especially if I want to do well this summer.

Thank you all for your prayers, love, and support!