Goals.

I love New Years. Not necessarily the celebrating part, but the the feeling of a clean slate. I believe you can have a clean slate anytime you want, but it always feels nice to start it off at the beginning of the year.. especially after all the junk I eat over Christmas ha ha ha!

I'm not going to write my goals on here because they're kind of personal so I wrote them somewhere else, but I'm going to try to start a new "one picture a day" or what people call Project 365. The main reason I stopped was because nursing school started and I just got caught up in it and let the days slip by and gave up. I feel like these next two semesters will be busy, but not in the same way as the first two. Plus, I'll be graduating at the end of the summer and I definitely want to capture that! Then hopefully by the end of 2010 I'll have my first real job :D

So for anyone that is interested in following, I'll let you know where to find it when I figure out where I want to put it. Might put it on Flickr again like I did the first one. This project just helps me to have fun and see details in between the chaos of life.

Happy New Year!!!

"Every day ought to be the start of a new year and a new life. Such is the wonder of faith, repentance, and the miracle of the gospel of Jesus Christ." -Elder Jeffery R. Holland. (www.mormon.org)

Happy Holidays!!!

I love this time of year. It's just wonderful to be with family and relaxing without any care in the world! I have so much joy and hope for the following year.

Let us always remember to keep the spirit of Christ throughout the whole year :)

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

More Blessings

Well, I did it. I passed peds/ob!!!! I barely made it out of that class alive. It's the one class that pretty much weeds people out and I was just looking at the new clinical schedule and there are SO many missing names. It makes me sad and makes me wonder why I deserved this blessing and some didn't receive it at this time. I'm learning to see it as individuals and how each of us have our own paths in life and we must journey on our own sometimes as hard as it may be. He guides our lives in a way we can never imagine and we should try really hard to put our trust in Him. I think that's where the struggle lies. I know I've said before that I would accept his path for me, but it defintely wouldn't have been easy if it had gone the other way.

I feel very fortunate and very blessed that the Lord provided a way for me to do this even when I probably deserved to fail more times than not. He defintely blesses us way more than we deserve pretty much everytime. I've learned so much about myself these last 15 weeks than I have in the last few years.

Thank you all that have supported me and said prayers on my behalf!

Hope everyone enjoys the Holidays with loved ones and remembers Christ during this Christmas season :)

Wow!!

So I guess I am an OB genius... so far. Well, I wouldn't say genius, but enough to keep me passing!!!!!

I know, I can't believe it either. I've gotten B's on my last two exams and I'm currently keeping my head above water. Oh, so much hope!!!

I definitely had to change my attitude and what I was doing to get to this point. I would never have figured this out if I hadn't struggled so much in the beginning. Weird how Heavenly Father makes things apparent to you through your trials, huh? And even if it still doesn't end the way I want it to, I know I can get back up and keep going after this.

Thanks again for your love and support whoever reads this :)

Come What May and Love It

Today was a better day. My week has been better. I've been making an effort to think positive thoughts and let my worries go as best I can. Thank you for all your wonderful thoughts, advice, love, prayers, and support! It meant so much to read your words :)

Defeat

Things are definitely not working out in my favor so far. This semester is the roughest semester I've ever been through and I don't see myself coming out of it alive. It'll be the first time ever in my life that I'll have to re-take a class and it's really hard to accept it even though I've been praying about it and I feel good about re-taking it. But the adversary definitely has a way of making you think otherwise and that's where the struggle has come in. It just breaks my heart. I'm scared. I feel so inadequate. I don't know how to handle it some days. Other days I feel fine.

I'm not sure why I'm going through this. Is there a purpose that I need to re-take it or am I really that dumb that I can't get this and no amount of divine help will work? Am I not working hard enough? Am I not wanting it bad enough? Why has He brought me this far and letting me fall? Ugh. So many negative thoughts.

But I do feel that re-taking it would help me out in the long run as a nurse. I just really hope it's for some type of purpose, that He's doing it for my own good and not because I just can't do it otherwise I don't feel like I could handle it all. I get discouraged way too easily.

Other than that, life is just lovely! Can you tell?? ha ha

Siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh of Relief

I'm already 3 weeks into the semester! It's gone by so fast already. I can't keep up and I barely can keep up with friends so please forgive me if I forget to respond or write back. Just keep bugging me.

I had a really good day today.

I don't want to forget today.

I got some prayers answered and a feeling of peace.

Nothing is impossible.